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I'm feeling nostalgic, emotional, and a little bit weepy.
We'll be moving soon. We haven't lived in this house for forever, but it's been three years. We brought our bulldog puppy home here. Much more importantly, we brought our brand new baby girl home here. Our sweet, brand new, pink little bundle who is now a potty-trained (!!!!) two year old.
Samuel is starting school tomorrow. He's going to the same school that Judah goes to (three days school, two days homeschool). I know this is the right decision and I know he'll love it, but just thinking about him gone for those three days makes me weepy. I'll miss him so, so much.
Silas has a birthday tomorrow, Samuel has a birthday next week. My boys are getting big.
Life is changing. Life is changing in great ways, but it's still changing. I'm not always good with change. Sometimes I want to hold on to the way things are, because they're good now. Even if I know things will be even better I guess I'm afraid that maybe they won't? I don't know. I don't really know why I don't like change. It's uncomfortable. It's a lot of work. It disrupts schedules and is unpredictable.
It's out of my control.
Maybe I like controlling my environment and my situations. The unknown is scary. Whatever I'm doing now, even if it's just ok, is comfortable and familiar. Maybe I'm going to try to take risks. Maybe I'm just going to trust God and let Him be in control. I'll just rest and enjoy the ride.
(I'm linking up at Just Write.)
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I can completely relate to your sentiments. Change is funny that way, isn't it? We have such an innate urge to hang onto the good even if the unknown will be so much better. I guess that's why God knows we need faith. Thank you for sharing this post...it's nice to read a like minded soul. :)
ReplyDeleteChange is so difficult and moving is the hardest! We moved last year from our home of 4 years and it was very hard. But we had to trust God, which I have a hard time doing sometimes. We're still having a hard time in our new place, even after an entire year. But I know God is still in control and I know He has a plan. We just have to be patient. Just continue to lean on Him.
ReplyDeleteI absolutely relate to the desire to control everything. :) And, I know how easy it is to get attached to a physical space - especially when you're making family memories there everyday. Hopefully your new home will be host to just as many good things.
ReplyDeleteOh Morgan, that is a great deal to be nostalgic and emotional about, and even a bit weepy. And what incredible joys to clebrate!
ReplyDeletep.s. I love when you...just write! :)
Oh wow, do I know these feelings. Change is hard for me too. But I just found out that things are NOT going to be changing soon and I' a bit sad about that too. Funny how life works that way sometimes...
ReplyDeleteI hate change too. It makes me sad watching my babies grow up. It does help to remind me that everything is fleeting and to treasure the moments I have with them even when I'm frustrated.
ReplyDeleteI can completely relate to this post. Ah, life!
ReplyDeleteOH, that's a lot going on! I wish you the best, and some peace!
ReplyDeleteSteph