I'd Rather Pretend It Never Happened

Tonight I'm working on my Thankful post for today, but I'm way too distracted. Today's post will have to wait until tomorrow. Because, like Emily said, my heart is totally racing and my adrenaline is pumping.

Emily and her husband recently started a little Bible study and tonight was our night to host. It all went well, the kids had fun, everyone had left, and Eric and I and all the kids were in Silas' room getting everyone's jammies on when all the sudden Finley started choking. Her face turned red and she was crying, but at the same time gulping for her. My "cpr for the professional rescuer" training (to be a lifeguard) told me that if she was crying she was ok. But, the mommy in me was starting to panic. I told Eric I was worried and he said to take her to the ER. I said that if she really was choking we wouldn't have time to go to the ER, so maybe he should call 911.



He called 911, but I was telling him what to say, "Say she's choking. But, maybe she's ok. But, she's gulping for air. But, maybe she is ok."

He hung up and said they were on their way. I said, "Maybe you should call back and tell them not to come." He said they were already on their way.

Then, Emily and her family pulled up. Her daughter had forgotten her bear, so she came inside to get it while her husband and kids waited outside.



Then, they showed up. I didn't see outside, but I think there were two ambulances and a firetruck and about 10 EMTs and firefighters. And, a stretcher.

I know this isn't about me. Maybe me focusing on being embarrassed is my way of coping with what could have been. I'd rather be horrified at having all of these people in my house over "nothing" than think about the fact that they could have been here for "something."



So, that's what I'm thankful for. I'm so incredibly thankful for health. That Eric and I and all of our kids are healthy. We were at the ER for Samuel's finger, but more than anything that was just an annoyance. Judah was sick this week and that was another annoyance. My sweet baby girl is ok. I'm so thankful to God for His protection and for our health.

(These pictures are blurry because I can't get this girl to sit still for a second anymore. She's on the move!)