I'm learning the balance between loving people and trusting God.
As you all know, I'm a leader in my church. Me, and two other ladies, are over all of the women of the church. It's our "job" to love on them, minister to them, hang out, and be moms and friends to them. I love it. I LOVE LOVE LOVE it! I know that God created me to minister to women and marriages and families. To help them grow in relationship with God and with each other. To help them find healing for past wounds and have victory in every area of their life.
Loving people comes naturally for me. God created me to love deeply and passionately. I love the girls in my cell group and in my church so much. I would do anything for them. Everyday I lay my life down for them and I have no regrets about it. I'm doing what I was made to do.
When these ladies have success in their lives I cheer for them and laugh with them. I love seeing them receive ministry and healing from God.
Obviously, life isn't only about success and victory. Life is full of pain and struggles. In the same way that I love these women through their hard times I, also, love them through rough and difficult times. Lately I have been having a hard time with this. Seeing people I love struggling is so hard. I know I can't dp anything about it (except pray!), but watch and be there to love them.
I'm learning to trust God with all of these situations. To fight in prayer and then leave them at the cross.
God spoke this word to me. I have been tending to all of the other vineyards (people), but " my own vineyard I have neglected." (Song of Solomon 1:6) I have been ministering and ministering and ministering, but right now I really need the Lord to minister to me. I need Him to love on me and give me His strength to love people with His love. My love does nothing. His love conquerors all.