5 Years

On Saturday, June 7th, Eric and I celebrated* our 5th anniversary.

At church on Sunday Eric shared about our anniversary and why it was so significant. 5 years ago we had gotten married. It was a gorgeous day. The week before had been one 100 degrees, but that day is was only in the 80s. The presence of God was there at our wedding and we had high expectations for marriage. We were madly in love and that's all that really matters, right?

Well, not so much. "All we need is love?" No! We had love, but unfortunately, 7 months later we were separated. We had gone to 4 different (Christian) counselors. Spent A LOT of money, that we surely didn't have. Worked on communication. Talked to our pastor. And, all they could tell us is....they thought we should get separated. And, not just separated, but separate for 7 months. Since that's how long we had been married that's how long it would take to fix, if things even were fixable.

A lot of the problems in our marriage stemmed from the rejection that was in my heart. I had a wound of rejection and perceived (and received) rejection. Every time I felt rejected by Eric I would get angry, which would cause him to reject me even more, and this cycle continued. I'm thankful to God for healing that rejection.I allowed God to love me as a father who loved me and accepted me and protects my heart. Our marriage has been completely restored. Things have never gone back to the way they were, four and a half years later. Restoration means to bring things into order. Our marriage was in chaos, but God brought it back into order.