Today didn't exactly go as planned. I hate to say that I had a bad day because Thank you Jesus, I am alive! And healthy! And, have so much to be thankful for.
Things that could have been better:
-I went to Wake Up NOW this morning, drank my once a week coffee, and my stomach felt YUCK after that. And, oh yeah, because of the time change it felt like waking up at 5:30am. Not my thing.
-My intentions were to pick up Laura at 10am and head to Barnes & Noble. Unfortunately, I could not find my keys anywhere. Eric had to come home and give me the spare and we picked her up at 11. Eric found my keys this evening on the kitchen table. Imagine that!
-We went out to lunch with Laura, 3 other girls in my cell group, and 7 kids including Judah and Samuel. As soon as we sat down I started to feel a little hot and stressed. I could tell the hostess was not happy we were there and it made me self-conscious from the beginning. Judah hit Samuel in the face and I let myself get frustrated and angry with him. I FEEL SO BAD! I know what he did was wrong, but the Bible says, "In your anger, do not sin." I apologized to him over and over, but I never ever, EVER want to get frustrated with my baby! Ugh! That was the worst part of the day.
-Judah did not take a nap for the second day in a row. We know he still needs a nap because yesterday he slept in his stroller the whole time we were at Costco (I guess he did take a nap yesterday). Yesterday he, also, learned how to climb out of his crib. NO! The day I have been dreading...
-Tonight I went to sit in the computer chair. I was holding Samuel, so I moved it over, sat down, and heard a huge CRUNCH. I had sat on top of Judah's prized guitar and he was completely hysterical. This was the second worst part of the day. I seriously feel SOOOO BAD. I told him we could go buy a new guitar tomorrow.
-After putting Judah to be Eric went to do the laundry. I was feeding Samuel and he was almost asleep when I heard a thud and crying. Judah had climbed out of his bed again and this time hit his head. I went and picked him up and because Samuel was almost asleep and he got woken he started crying. So, I held them both on my lap, both hysterical waiting for Eric to come back. They hit heads during this time and only cried harder.
-After reading Judah another book and put him back in his bed he's climbed out quietly and successfully twice more. Each time we put him in his bed he cries. How do you do the toddler bed thing? It's almost 10 and he's STILL awake!
Ok, enough complaining. I don't want to be negative. I'm going to list things that I am thankful for.
-Judah is SO adorable and so sweet and so smart. Everyday I'm impressed with all of the things that he says and comprehends. The other day we were talking about how a friend was pregnant. I said, "Where's Mama's baby?" He pointed to Samuel. I said, "What's in Mama's belly?" He said, "You don't have a big belly." (I liked that answer) Then, he said, "You have food in there?" I was blown away by how smart my little two year old is. And, for all of you parents with babies, the twos really aren't terriblea at all. They're actually pretty amazing. I enjoy my Judah so much! The times (like today) when I feel frustrated are because of me and my own selfishness (what do people think of me when my kids are acting up?) and not Judah who is just being a normal little boy.
-My sweet, sweet Samuel (or "Feet, feet Fennel" as Judah would say). I adore this little lovebug. He is, seriously, so cuddly and lovey. When someone holds me he loves to cuddle into your neck. And, now, when we say "Give me a kiss" he leans in and kisses us. I've been meaning to say for awhile that he self-weaned from his paci about a month ago. He didn't really want it and we definitely didn't push it. I was wondering how and when we would wean it from him, but thankfully he's done it on his own.
-My amazing husband, who is such a man of God, and loves me in spite of not doing everything right. Not once did he get upset or frustrated with me today (when that could have easily happened), but instead he continues to show me the selfless love of God.
-JESUS! Just Jesus in general. How can everyday not be GREAT when you know Him.